Why am I trying to lose half my body weight? 

The Promised Land

The Promised Land

Well. Firstly because half my body weight is the equivalent of an actual person. When you weigh as much as two people combined – I think you should probably do something about it!

Secondly because I don’t want to die (maybe this should have been reason number one!). I have been aware for a while now of the complications of being this overweight; diabetes, stroke, heart attack etc. but they always happen to “other people”. It’s taken some time to accept that I’m not immune to these things.

Thirdly because I would like to have kids one day. I have something called PCOS, without going into too much gory detail it’s enough to say my fertility isn’t great. The NHS will pay for me to have IVF but not at my current weight. I don’t want kids for another 3 years so that’s fine, but if it’s going to take 2 years to lose the weight then starting now would probably be a good idea.

Fourthly so I can sit down. This may sound weird but hear me out on this one. I have developed a phobia about sitting down on public transport. As my ass is rather large, I feel like I’m taking up 1.5 seats rather than 1. This is something I am quite self-conscious about so rather than sit, I stand in the corner and try to make myself as small as possible! It doesn’t help I also get a little claustrophobic when sat down as I feel surrounded by tall people. I also will not get on a plane as I’m pretty sure my ass will not fit in the seat and I will have to get one of those day glow orange seatbelt extenders. Nothing says sexy like announcing you’re too fat for a seatbelt!

Finally because I want to shop in Primark. As much as Primark is arguably home of the chavs, there is sometimes some nice stuff in there. Cheap stuff. The trouble with being my size is that clothing is more expensive, probably due to all the extra miles of fabric it takes to cover my boobs and my ass. It’s also pretty shapeless, plus size retailers seem to feel that bigger women are wanting to hide themselves under sacks and so that is what they make for us. Sacks in varying patterns and colours. It would be nice to just walk into Primark with £50 and buy a whole new wardrobe that’s not shaped like a sack. That’s the goal.

I think they’re all good reasons. At least, they are good reasons for me. I can understand if some people don’t want to shop in Primark!

Much love,

xXx

  5 comments for “Why am I trying to lose half my body weight? 

  1. April 7, 2015 at 10:21 am

    I’m with you on the primark thing!! I get so frustrated not being able to shop at primark due to my size…anyway, best of luck on your journey! I’m just (re)starting mine too, Jo xx

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  2. April 7, 2015 at 11:25 am

    Good for you 🙂 It takes a lot of effort to get back on the wagon!! Best of luck to you too x

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  3. April 7, 2015 at 2:12 pm

    I have been there! The fear of sitting down in public bc you aren’t sure if you will fit or if you will break it is a real fear. My weight used to limit me to such a ridiculous extent that it was depressing. It still does limit me sometimes, but after losing 75 pounds (have about 75 more to lose, too!) I am no longer afraid to sit in public. You will get there, and it will be worth it!!

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  4. April 9, 2015 at 2:45 pm

    I totally understand how you guys are feeling! A couple weeks back I went to get my eyebrows waxed and tinted and then realised I had to sit on this small metal bed thing for them to do it and I was so damn worried I would break it and it collapse onto the floor! I am so glad I didn’t!

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  5. Jo
    April 20, 2015 at 1:37 pm

    Oh the joys of being overweight 🙂 x

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